Happy New Year! It’s a few days into the new year already and it was tempting for me to let it pass by without saying anything. 2016 was a really hard year for me and I am not one bit sad to see it go. Like most people, I feel a pull to set some goals and aim high in the new year, but really as long as 2017 looks nothing like 2016 I think I’ll be ok.
I don’t get personal on here very often because I’m a really private person, but sometimes it feels good to open up a little more. Some of the people who read my blog have been reading for a few years and probably know hardly anything about me! I’ve kept my blog topics light and mostly centered around makeup despite my “lifestyle and beauty” tagline.
There has been so much buzz about 2016 being a dumpster fire of a year with celebrity deaths, politics, bad things happening in the world, etc. Yes, all of those things bummed me out too, but on a more personal level this year as a whole really stunk for me. I failed at each and every one of my goals. I gained weight. We didn’t pay off my student loans like we had hoped to. We didn’t make any headway on our vehicle loan like we had hoped to. I didn’t work on improving my photography. I made less than a quarter of what I did the year prior on my blogging income. Someone hit my van and ran off. We were disappointed by friends. We were let down by family. My anxiety became a crushing force I could hardly manage. We finished an awful year out strong in December by having our furnace unexpectedly go out, my credit card info was stolen, and my laptop break in the same week. Our one great moment from the year was giving birth to beautiful baby Valerie- of course she is a HUGE blessing and her presence is a stark contrast to what the rest of the year surrounding her birth looked like for us.
My power word for the year in 2017 is “health.” This year, I am only making choices that are healthy for me and my family. I want to hit the gym more (or should I say at all). I want to make lifestyle choices that make me feel good about myself. Eating healthy, going to church, spending more quality time with my family, not sweating the small stuff…all of those things will lead me to a better place of mental and physical health.
If 2016’s defects weren’t enough to stress about, we might be moving this year to a different zip code in the same area we are in so my husband has a better commute to work. The thought of listing our home on the market has me sweating big time. We have a 4 year old, a 2 year old, and a 3 month old. My house is never clean. My house is not nicely decorated. It’s not trendy. There are toys everywhere. The few wall hangings we have still have their Hobby Lobby stickers attached to the back or were a cheap thrill purchase from the clearance rack section somewhere else. Our kitchen table and chairs are our only furniture that’s not secondhand, and they are constantly covered in a thin crust of yogurt that I use a dish scraper to remove. The thought of having people walk through our house in its current state makes me cringe.
As part of reclaiming my health and sanity, I am going to declutter our house of a lot of this “stuff” we seem to accumulate left and right. We have more toys than we’ll ever need, puzzles with missing pieces, clothes that will never fit again, half used bottles of shampoo, and makeup and beauty products laying everywhere. It doesn’t add joy to my life and it slows me down. I’m becoming exhausted with trying to keep up with too much beauty writing. I don’t like being on the new release train anymore. I have felt pressure to write about beauty products right when they come out and own the latest and greatest products that soon get cast aside, never to be thought of again. I’m also starting to wonder how healthy some of the beauty products are that I’ve been applying every day for 15 years. I know there are cleaner alternatives to many things. I’ve tried and loved many products that fall into the clean or at least “clean-er” beauty realm that I want to share with you here. I want to spend less time “keeping up” with other bloggers and more time cuddling my babies. I want to spend more money on cool experiences and saving up for the future and less money on makeup and other things.
Despite 2016 being a rough year, I have high hopes for 2017. I have been down and feeling overwhelmed, but better days are around the corner, I can feel it. I saw a quote that was going around on Instagram a while back and I could relate so hard that I wanted to share it. Forgive me but I can’t find a source listed anywhere, so I’m assuming it’s unknown. If you know where I can attribute credit, please let me know!
Don’t you love that? “I am the storm.” That is part of the attitude I hope to reclaim this year by focusing more on my health. I would love to get a necklace engraved with that somewhere as a constant reminder. Link me if you know of a place that does such things.
It felt good to get all of that off my chest. I am grateful for everyone who reads what I post, whether you’ve been following me for a long time or if you’re new here. I’d love to hear some of your goals or hopes for the new year if you’re so inclined to share them with me. Let’s make 2017 the best year yet!